I'm just feeling so down ): I don't know what in the world I have done wrong. Really. I hope there is some reasonably good explanation to it. I just feel so exasperated! You are the last person that's closer to me and this has happened. I just really feel like shutting up to myself sometimes and don't talk or socialize with anyone else around me (unless there is really a need to). I just hope matters can be solved soon. I don't wish to drag things on further :/

Just an update!

16 April 2009, Thursday
Cancelled Tuition. So met up with Twinny after his work. Met up with Bao Bei again after work for dinner! She was with her bf, Yi Long. Had Carl's Junior for dinner. Heys! It's my first time eating Carl's Junior ((: Anyway, walked over to Esplanade's rooftop and had talked cock there. Oh man! They whole time was really hilarious la! There was this moment when Yi Long said something and both Twinny and I laughed so hard till we went out of breath. Seriously, every gasp of breath we took just wasn't enough! Trained home at about 10.30pm. Took the same train with Bao Bei and Yi Long while Twinny went the oppposite direction of Singapore ): Was super worn out that day till I slept right away after bathing.

17 April 2009, Friday
Finally cleared all my paperworks to be scanned (: It's a great relieve to me ok? Seeing the whole stack of papers in my in-tray and it just keeps piling, I can tell you, it was so presurizing when you see a FSC coming into office! Had tuition at night with Carine. Her maths in improving *claps claps*. Again, I was worn out after that!

18 April 2009, Saturday
Went out with Twinny to East Coast Park! (: Super fun but tiring! My legs are not aching now. But I guess I will feel the tension in my thighs tomorrow morning. Had work in the morning. So I met Twinny at 1.30pm @ Queenstown. But he was late! *hurmph* So in the end, took a train over to Outram to meet him there. Trained all the way to Bedok, then bus-ed to ECP. We alighted at the wrong stop of ECP, resulting in walking quite a long distance under the hot sun! Rested at Burger King and ate our... Dinner? It was at about 4pm then. By the time we rented our bikes was about 4.40pm. Rented it for 4 hours! (: Rode all the way to Changi through the PCN (Twinny's guess is: Park Connecting Network). Ok la. Not all the way to Changi. We stopped at a "beach" to rest our aching legs and tired butts. Had a talk there and watched the sky turn dark. Headed back to ECP at about 7.45pm without stopping. We saw a big big snake! Wanted to stop and have a look at it. But Twinny refused. He said it will bite us o.O Anyway, by the time we got back ECP, it was already 8.50pm. Went to change and wash up and cabbed back to Bedok. Ate Ban Mian! So disappointed! Our favourite Tom Yam Ban Mian out of stock ): So we ate the normal one. Trained home at about 10.50pm. Twinny waited with me for my train (: Thanks Twinny! I can't believe Twinny and I have loads in common at times.

Bye all! Have to go for my tuition again. Schedule for the day:
10am to 11.30am - Qian Yu
12pm to 1.30pm - Ruo Lan
2pm to 3.30pm - Carine
7pm to 8.30pm - A new student

You're still on my mind in whatever I do.

Hellos (: My post shall have some photos today since I have a handphone with a 5mp camera now (:

"You want the whole world to know is it?"-I was woken up by this question. Guess I should just stop all this nonsense about looking back into the past. Yea. It's all in the past now. Pick up my pieces and get a move on with my life. I have nothing more to say since you don't trust me at all. Just felt so fucked up! But guess all my efforts weren't gone to waste. At least I learnt something from my Twinny, "When a guy initiates to go seperate ways, most likely, it can't be changed." He is right I guess.

Yeah! Bought a new handphone today! The Samsung F480. Super duper happy (: I am keeping 2 phones now. Crazy right? But I will wait till my Singtel student plan contract ends first. I still want to enjoy those free unlimited sms.

Somehow, I feel relaxed now. Though, I still have gastrics ): I forgot to take my medicine for 2 days ):

Oh ya, went out with Twinny yesterday! Felt super good to see him. It's like finally. He treated me to Swensen's Ice cream (he lost a bet), and we ate deep-fried Shitake and french fries as well. Walked around Suntec City and walked over to Esplanade! Had not chatted so much with Twinny before. It's a fun day! (: Twinny's nonsense! *hahas*

Have to turn in soon! Goodnights all! (:

Back from my first tuition. The girl was totally happy and hyperactive. She initiated the question "What's your name" first. Totally shocked man! Everyone of my other students are so quiet on the first day, unlike her. Anyway, was kind of fruitful. But got to go hunt for her assesment books tomorrow ): No one to go with me! *sobs* Who wants to go with me? T.T

Work was fun today. Had many things to scan and got my salary today! (: The money in my bank is officially mine :D Was shocked by someone. And I mean really shocked. *l0ls*

I am going to take up LCCI Diploma in Business Administration (BMC) and probably Diploma in Early Childhood from Ngee Ann Polytechnic (part-time) after that. Still not sure what course to take up ):

Have to work alone tomorrow again ): I wish someone would come down. Anyone at all. I don't like working alone. I will go crazy. *hahas* Or maybe I should just talk to papers (:

I want so much to buy heels or something. Or maybe buy skirts for work? I need skirts! But I hate wearing them >.< *haiis* I want to go shopping. But bao bei Wei Qian is always either busy or... tight-fist XD Bao Bei!! Go shopping sometime soon okies? We shall meet up again and take lots of pictures! :D And my chicken, not to forget. *wahahas!* Anyone else wants to go shopping with me? Ok, maybe window shop XD

I guess I will have to be independent now. Shop alone, eat alone, go home alone, do things alone and worse of all, no one to talk to ):

Have to go! Wake up, clean Ribbon's cage, bath, work, tuition, bath, eat, sleep. That's my routine everyday man ): Boring fucked up life! *Grrr!!!* I want something else for a change ):

I will be looking forward to 18 April 2009, Saturday (:

Work today is fun! At least, I think of it as fun because I have lots of submission to do and it was quite challenging. And finally, I completed everything! Angie (my colleague) was asking me if I am done with the movies that she burnt for me or not. I told her I am scared of watching alone and she laughed at me >.<''' Super dots. I love horror shows, but I am scared of watching it alone.

Oh ya, was on half day yesterday. Went to consult a doctor on my gastric. I am having serious gastric everyday! It's like a minor pain is present everytime, but it gets worse when I eat something or don't eat anything. I realize I will have serious gastric pains whenever I eat "ban mian". Maybe it's because of the anchovies ): *haiis* I was told to drink lesser cold drinks (have been drinking cold drinks for every lunch), as it affects gastric o.O Anyway, I went to consult a doctor and she told me to lie down, press and press my whole stomach area and places including the part where the womb the bladder everything suppose to be o.O Was wondering whether Gastric affects there? She prescribed a stronger medicine for me. It's in capsule form and has to be taken with plenty of water. Get it?! PLENTY OF WATER! I haven't seen any medicine that says take it with plenty of water. It's acidic anyway. I thought our gastric juices are already acidic? Wouldn't acid+acid=More acidic? I am going to die soon... ): Anyway, she said if my condition does not get any better after the full medication, I am to go back to her for a referral to hospital for a scope ): Super duper scary can? I don't want to take that step. She suspects it might be a stomach ulcer if it does not get better. *haiis* Die! )))):

Hey! I think I am going crazy! ): Silly me. Goodnights all sane people! (: