I am just so... disappointed at myself. I really didn't log into your msn. But I guess you wouldn't believe me as you mentioned I was the only one who knew your password. That's just a killer "evidence". *haiis* How else can you believe in me? ):

Got back from work, ate my dinner and here I am blogging again. As mentioned, I will try to blog more often!

My eyes are pain! The part where it's behind the surface of my eyeballs ): *haiis*

I feel so insane since yesterday. My temper is super duper short, and I get pissed off at almost everything. When I was stamping dates for the mails collected yesterday, I stamped 1 mail wrongly and I started to hurl vulgarities at the mail. Ridiculous isn't it? I mean, it won't understand what I am scolding anyway. Good for me, there weren't anyone in the office then. And today, I am super quiet during work, till my colleagues asked me what happened and why am I not like my usual self. And now, at home, I start to get really impatient when speaking to my family ):

Got to go off for tuition. Starting at 7.30pm. Bye all!

ps:Thanks Bernard for your support! It seems you always appear whenever I am low (: I will catch up with you soon yea? Take Care!

I just feel real down and bad ): I wish I could do something about it but there is absolutely nothing. Nothing can describe the way I feel now. I wish I could just sleep my life away from all these miseries. I still miss him alot, but so what? It has all ended ): Close to one year we have been together and now it's all gone. And it's worse than ever. This feeling of heartache would be with me. I may conceal my feelings, but deep inside, it will still be there. I still, true-ly love you deeply... But I don't want to let go ): *haiis*

Had 2 tuitions today and my parents fetched me after that. We went to Qian Hu to buy Guppies. As usual, I caught them. Bought 8 of them. Next, we went over to Farm Mart. I saw this really cute bunny. Should be around 1.5 month old. It's an ash-grey Netherland Dwarf. And it cost $220! It's like WTF??! They over-priced that bunny! And I even spot a cut on the right ear. Fancy them pricing it at such a high price. Netherland Dwarfs would cost roughly about $180. And I learnt something today at that shop! We spotted baby hamsters in the bedding of the tank. The sales girl said that baby hamsters are alright to be left in the open. I've read through many books and over the net that you have to cover the cage, if not the hamsters will get stressed by human movements and eat their babies up. Weird Weird.

Work starts again tomorrow. No lunch partners as all of my colleagues have to attend a product launch. Boring...

When should I go for a check-up on my stomach? I feel there is something wrong but... I am just to chicken to see a doctor about it. Maybe I would be diagnosed with Stomach Cancer or something like that. *haiis* I can't possibly keep eating gastric medicines. Sure. It helps. But how long can I consume that? Surely, it will come to a day when it will have side effect. *haiis* I don't know what to do. The world seems to be crashing down on me. I don't know how to be stronger to face this crashing world ): I need you...

I wish for that to be a dream. Waking up only to find that everything became normal again ):

I know you won't ever forgive me. I am sorry. Sincerely sorry. I wish I can turn time back. I miss you...

Hell0s all!
It's been a really long time since I last posted and I think many might think that this blog is a corpse. But now, I guess it's time to bring it to life again. Ok. At least at a more frequent update than before.

Work's getting along fine now. Coming to 2 months. 1 more month before my probation ends. I love my job (: I get to talk at least and joke around.

Seriously, I don't know what to say at all. Ahhh... Maybe I shouldn't revive this blog.

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Oh well, most of the information above holds true. But... the point on education isn't at all true. Ok. I am receptive to practical learning. But I don't like to study :D