I just saw something on Taboo (Channel 5) which is highly gross! I'm not trying to be a racist against religion, but whatever I saw was highly eerie and definately not the faint hearted. I went online to find some pictures to post here for a better explanation of whatever I saw. I almost puke watching this!

Have anyone of you heard of Crocodile Scarring? *View this video: http://video.nationalgeographic.com/video/player/places/regions-places/australia-and-oceania/newguinea-crocscars-pp.html*

More about Crocodile scarring:
This is what a believer in Crocodile Scarring said, "In Papua New Guinea, scarification is usually related to initiation. In the middle Sepik region, it is believed that migrating ancestral crocodiles established human populations. During the wagan initiation ceremony which celebrates the return of the ancestral crocodile, young men from this region are initiated into manhood. The skin on the chest, back and buttocks of the initiate is cut with a bamboo sliver to test their physical strength and self-discipline. The scars, when healed, represent the teeth marks of the crocodile that has swallowed the initiates who are reborn as crocodile-men.

The ceremonies and the initiation scars, or marks, were part of my induction into manhood and training in the ways of Sharmanic healing and medicine."

What do you think of it? You can go google more about it.

Work was getting better today. And slight quarrells arose among my colleagues. Quite scary as I don't see this for such a long time. I miss my clique in my "2nd home"! ): I'm going for training tomorrow after work and training on Saturday night! :D I'm feeling so super elated!!

First day of work today! It bores me to death. Really. And people over there are majority Malaysians. I think only the girl sitting beside me and my sales director is local. They were all quite attitude at first. But I think it's due to the stress that they are getting from their customers. I wish I can be in the sales team. I might be able to create a higher turnover for the company. Then, I will be good in telemarketing! But sadly, I will be stuck to the admin team till my director sees potential in me. My admin includes a little of accounting. Frankly speaking, I'm burning my days away! I have to work every weekdays from 9am to 7pm, 2 Saturdays from 9am to 7pm and 2 Saturdays from 9am to 2pm. I will only be free on Sunday to go to my beloved company ): The thought of it just makes me tear. I only come to realise that the job is quite low paying when Zi Wei broke down the salary (per hour) for me to see. I didn't even realise it when Mr Hong Boon told me at first. But oh well. It's the only job that I can get nearest to home. Salary's $1,300. Am I underpaid? I'll have to spend my remaining time wisely. I'll make sure that I'll still be able to attend my BM's training on every Saturday night.

Spoke to my BM yesterday and I found myself feeling quite disheartened. Reason being, I don't have anyone close enough to talk to about what is on my mind. And things just keep accumulating in me. It was great relief being able to share what I am thinking with someone finally. I guess sharing my problems with my BM afterall isn't as bad as what I thought. But I still can't manage to put what is going through in my mind, into words. He showed me something which really cheered me up. It made me felt that I am not the only one going through that path, and that there is a way out. But I must remain persistant, which I always do. I must overcome everything! I really don't want myself to end up the same way as some people around me do. I want to be stronger in my mindset, and not to let my weakness overcome my mind! I find talking to myself do help alot. Especially when I'm alone, I'm my own's best friend and someone I can confide in. I'll let my mind talk myself out of failure, away from those weaker minds.

Recently, I've come to realise that I haven been thinking of 2 people. One of them has been in my mind for quite sometime now. I'm trying to force them out of my mind but they just keep drifting back soon again. Sarah! What're you thinking? You jolly well know that there is no good ending to this! But whenever I think of the unlikely ending, I will somehow feel floating away from the reality and imagining the impossibles. And it affects my mood. It really does. FOCUS!

Had outdoor training last night after we ended our activities at 10pm! Went with Mr Hong Boon and Wen Jie to Cineleisure. Wei Liang was there waiting for us. Found a place in KFC and sat there. Training was super duper fun, exciting and we broke our limitations! ((:

First round (1st part):
Each of us have to get 10 names and contacts within 15 minutes. It will hell load of fun! Both Wen Jie and I tact-teamed (as usual)! Wei Liang did alone. Wen Jie and I nearly argued due to "snatching" of numbers. *hahas!* In the end, we exceeded the 15 minutes and came back to KFC only after Mr Hong Boon called us. We were suppose to have forfeits, but our dear BM gave us chance and we will have forfeits only if we can't manage to accomplish the 2nd part. We learnt how to build bond better with strangers enough for them to help us. And also, make us realise how strong our "want" is.

First round (2nd part):
Both Wen Jie and Wei Liang were to take photos with 5 different individual PRETTY girls! But mine was different. I have to take photos of 7 different places/things with the letter "s". We were given a time limit of 15 minutes and we were suppose to set our own timer. And for the first time, I have to do thing in Orchard on my own. And I totally felt like someone strange in a strange place. Everyone was staring at me at first. Firstly, I was alone without a bag or anything. Secondly, I was taking photos of silly things with the letter "s". Let my photos tell you their story:

California FitneSs

Shokudo

Singapore Post

Works Access

Recycling Bins

Orchard Shopping Centre

Singapore Visitors Centre

Animal Farm-Visitors Centre

Both Wen Jie and Wei Liang lost in this round! Firstly, those girls in their photos weren't pretty enough (not up to standard). Secondly, they came back late by 2 minutes! And they still can walk instead of run! I was the first to reach there and even had enough time to chat with Mr Hong Boon on the "training". Solution to Wei Liang and Wen Jie's "late-ness": They should set their timer to less than 15 minutes as they still have to consider the duration for walking back.

Round 2 (1st part):
Mr Hong Boon led us on to the Arcade level (I forgot which level was that). Mr Hong Boon topped up Wen Jie's card and we played basketball shooting! Wen Jie and Wei Liang was in a team while Mr Hong Boon and I were in another. In the end, there wasn't any winner as the machine that Wei Liang and Wen Jie played with was faulty! Every ball that gets thrown through the hoop is considered 3 or 4 shots. And every single time the ball bounces off the hoop, it's considered 1 shot. So can you imagine how many shots they took? It was about 500++ just for the first round! Heavenly isn't it? *hahas* What we learnt? Don't think, just whack! :D

Round 2 (2nd part):
Time Crisis 4! I used to play this game with my brother. It's on of my favourites (: But my aiming skills went downhill. Was suppose to play with another person till the next area and we change players. I am not sure what we are suppose to learn for this part. But all I know is, I realised something. Worrying about what others feel or think won't lead you to success =/ That explains my "fast-dying-mode".

Round 2 (3rd part):
Headed over to level 8 to the K Pool and played the Photo Hunt there. Intended to play versus mode. Mr Hong Boon and I VS Wei Liang and Wen Jie. But in the end, due to my negligence, I wasted our chance. So ended up everyone played together. Point to learn, FOCUS!

Round 3:
Played Pool! Ok. I suppose this isn't really part of the training. But oh well, we did learn something. Played rounds of pool. 10 Minutes for each round. I played with Wen Jie and Mr Hong Boon. Ranking goes like this:
1st: Wen Jie/Mr Hong Boon
2nd: Mr Hong Boon/Wen Jie
3rd: Wei Liang
4th: ME!
Somethings happened during the game and it was ultimately hilarious till I can't control my pangs of laughter and ended up making my stomach muscles ache after that :D

Had a short debrief after the training, walked to the bus stop with Wei Liang and Wen Jie. Wei Liang's Night Rider (NR3) came first. My Night Rider took a longer time to come. I fell asleep without knowing till Wen Jie talked to me suddenly. I was so tired! Slept on the NR5 after that all the way till I reach my stop. I don't know why I can always sleep throughout my whole journey home and will wake up at my bus stop. So weird! Anyway, got locked out of house by my mum till about 5 plus in the morning. Was so relieved to hear Mr Hong Boon's voice after I told him that I was locked out of house. Don't "anyhow" think arhs... Ok. Seriously, I can't stand being alone. Really. It drives me crazy. And I was totally alone then, with only my little buddies keeping me company. Wondering who my little buddies are? They have 4 legs, a tail that can drop, and goes click-click-click! YES! They are lizards. Ok. Back to the point. I was feeling them annoyed and irritated just because I am deprived of sleep and that I am alone and worst still, nothing to do. So I was so glad that there is a voice I could hear at that moment. And he told me this: "Beware of those lizards. Later they urinate into your ear and you will go deaf." I think there isn't such thing right? Anyway, was able to go back home finally! :D

Weren't able to head back to office today as my mum don't allow me to do so )): Super sad!! I felt totally restless at home today. And I doubt I would be able to go office tomorrow too. What the hell T.T HELP HELP!! ):

Anyway on a side note, Gavin showed me this thing that's outside office and I took a photo of it.

Yes! Trust your eyes! It's half a millipede. And as I was always curious what's inside a millipede, Gavin picked it up with a tissue. It curled up immediately but I could still see what was inside. It looked like bits of soil in it. And this half a millipede was still crawling! Fantastic Mother Nature :D

That's all! Shall update again soon! ):

PICTURE OF THE DAY!

OMG! I'm suddenly known to Darren as his "Big Sister". Ok. I have a "Small Brother" now. *hahas*

You seriously get on my nerves. I thought you might have change after 3 years. But till now, you are still the same. Someone who lives in his own little world. Come on! Open your eyes big and take a look at the surroundings around you. You totally shocked me by what you said. Fret not! I don't really even bother your decision. But to think those sentences can even escape from your mouth, you've just brought shame to yourself. You are just a ridicule that we really want to get rid of. How can there even be such a person on Earth! I pity your parents, really. Here's what you said:

-a part of the conversation-
Me: So since you don't want to work, how will you be able to support yourself financially?
You: I will just live off my parents, they told me they have enough money till I get a full time job after I complete my Degree.
Me: But since you now know your mother has health related issues, don't you want to lighten her burden and fight for your own life? She has her own medical bills to pay, and you have 3 other siblings, 2 of which are still so young and needs more of the financial help.
You: I don't care. My mother will give me money.
Me: So since you cancelled your 2 appointments with your relatives, how are they going to get benefited in their health? You too know they have health conditions, and you can help them.
You: They are only my relatives, just let them die.
Me: Then what about your mother? You know our water can help her. Yet you are doing this to her! She has been the one bringing you up, giving you money to spend. You threw your temper at her because you don't know how to appreciate her! And now, you are trying to steal her life!
You: I don't care. She can just die. I don't bother.
Me: Ok. Let's face the fact. True, one day, our parents have to leave us. But right now, there is something you can do about your life isn't it? You can always lighten their burden and earn your own income. What will happen when one day both your parents are gone and you have no one to rely on? And you have no work experience?
You: Then I'll just perish and die lor.
-continues with conversation in a cold manner-
You: So about the 4 cartons of water, is it submitted?
Me: *Irritated-but still controlling* Yes. It's been submitted.
You: What the... I didn't create any account. How can the water be submitted?
Me: We have our own ways. It might be submitted under me or my BM.
You: *shocked* You mean you won't even give me a chance if I choose to come back to this company?
Me: No.
-Ends Conversation-

Seriously, I have never seen anyone so pathetic in life! So what even you have an A level Cert from ACJC? So what even if you get a placement in Uni? Come on! Singapore don't need such failures in life. People who are not able to leave their own shell ought to be outcast by common citizens. They don't even help themselves. Don't even talk about getting others to help them. "I want to improve the way I speak, have confidence, and be more sociable." You don't even blink when you told me those lies. You even cursed your mother to have shorter life. Talking to you makes my blood boil. I wanted so much to apologise to my BM as I asked him for help in helping me talk you around. I felt so guilty now as I have made his morning gone downhill. Get a grip of yourself! You think you own the world? Think again! You are neither good-looking nor acceptable in personality! And you don't even accept comments from others. Just wish you find a good hole to hide in

I want to watch some good horror movies so much to relieve the stress within me! Who's wants to watch with me? :D

Updates on some photos taken on Leaders Recognition Night!

Whole DHA

Half A DHA

Mr Hong Boon's Group (1st shot!)

3rd From Left: Mr Soon Hwee, Hui Feng, Wen Jie, Eugene, Jin Hong
2nd From Left: Sarah (me), Cheryl, Kenneth, Jia Zheng
1st: Mr Hong Boon

Mr Hong Boon's Group (2nd shot!)

Mr Hong Boon's Group (3rd shot!)

Mr Hong Boon's Group (4th shot!)

Mr Hong Boon's Group (5th shot!)

Rhino's Marketing Executives

Hari, Wen Jie, Hui Feng, Zi Wei, Joyce, Gavin, Ken, Sarah & Cheryl (top)

Me, Ariff

Me, Joyce

Me, Joyce

Cheryl, Me

Cheryl, Me

Me, Zi Wei

Me, Zi Wei

I seem to be loosing sight of what I am targeting for. I also seem to lose focus on whatever that I want to achieve. How? =/ Didn't go back office today and I felt as though I have lost track of stuffs and lost my momentum. Oh man! I should have listened to my BM ):

Spent almost the whole day going online today. MSN is getting more and more dangerous these days! There have been many weird guys adding me in msn and inviting me for a webcam session. What the hell! These guys should just rot off from this Earth. And to play safe, I turned my webcam away! Wahahas!

My Subway work would be starting tomorrow at 9am. Have to report to work at around 8.45am. *sighs* Which means I have to wake up at 6am? T.T There goes my precious sleep. But that's the least that I can do to keep my dreams going (:

Played MapleSEA with Paul for about an hour. Oh my god. It's been ages since I last touched Maple. And I hate playing the MapleSEA. I prefer playing the private servers as it is more thrilling. Anyway, have been playing Cafe World and Roller Coaster Kingdom recently. It's fun! But abit bored after awhile. But the good thing is, I can see passive income for my Cafe World while I am offline. On another happy note, I made Hui Feng my waiter! *wahahas!* XD

Went for a meet-up session with Mr Glenn at 2pm today (: Had a talk with Mr Charles and headed home with Wei Liang and Hui Feng. It's been more than a week since I last saw Wei Liang. Shared with Hui Feng a 2 for $1.80 ice-cream and he kept complaining that I will get fat soon by eating it. He asked me to share with him the cost in the first place! Zzz! We even went to buy bread to eat. It has been some time since I last really laughed. Anyway, train-ed home after the bread session. Hui Feng got off at Tiong Bahru, Wei Liang at Jurong East and myself at... secret! *wahahas!* And here I am blogging again.

I am going to talk more to myself mentally and always remember what I am here for! (:

I miss taking the Singapore Flyer Ride! Anyone wants to treat me there? :D

I hate Hotmail! It has this limit of 300 emails that can be sent out per day. Oh my GOD! This is frustrating! Must create many more email accounts. Somehow, Yahoo mail does not work for me. My email says it's been sent out. But when I check my sentbox, it was totally empty! CRAP!

I had a really bad and wasted day yesterday ): It's due to my lack of courage and laziness once again. I could have made calls instead of sms!! Had a talk with Darren yesterday and realised he wasn't as quiet as I thought he seemed to be. He talks & complains alot! *hahas* And he said that I am skinny! I felt as though I am on cloud9. And for goodness sake, someone kept saying I weigh 70kg! I don't weigh that much ok?!

Would be going over to office later at 2pm for a meet up. When everything has ended, I will then meet Yu Xiang to pass him the toothpaste. And I am being labelled as the water-seller by his mother! =.='''

It seems we always dream of each other at the same period of time. It's as you said, been 6 months since we last met. I've been wondering how have you been all this while. I was shocked to see you online the other day in the morning at about 3plus am. But it was kind of good feeling that we get to talk over msn again. But somehow, the way we talk over msn, aren't the way like it was before in the past. Hopefully we can get to build bond again? (:

Happy 18th Birthday Kenneth! (:

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO KENNETH! (:

It was a rather eventful day!

I had training for my part-time job at about 2pm to 6pm today. But it got extended till 6.30pm. Nearly rushed back to office before I came to know that my activities has been postponed to tomorrow. Had someone coming down at 9pm! Can you believe it, it's so late! And the funny thing is that only half of what I am suppose to do is completed. The other half will be completed tomorrow.

After everyone's activities, Kenneth, Hui Feng, Darren, Jia Zheng (i forgot his name!), Wen Jie, Mr Hong Boon and Mr Soon Hwee went to play basketball while Ms Ai Ping, Hwee Lin and I settled the "cake delivery". Sang Kenneth an English and Chinese version of the birthday song. While they were eating the cake, both Darren and I shot basketball! It's been a pretty long time since I last lay my hands on a basketball. Darren was super funny can. Each time I shoot in, he will say "Confirm you got practice one lor". I seriously didn't. Anyway, was great fun playing with Darren.

Tomorrow will be a better day! Think positive! (:

From Left to Right: Jia Zheng, Wen Jie, Hui Feng, Kenneth (in white), Mr Hong Boon (in black), Me, Hwee Lin, Mr Soon Hwee, Darren, Ms Ai Ping

Kenneth's Cake

Kenneth, Mr Soon Hwee
Kenneth & His Cake :D

Each time I speak my heart out to you, it gives me such a relieved feeling. I really appreciate your help greatly. And I learnt: Someone with a feeling of want is always able to perservere on and push himself/herself to the limits! (: