First day of work today! It bores me to death. Really. And people over there are majority Malaysians. I think only the girl sitting beside me and my sales director is local. They were all quite attitude at first. But I think it's due to the stress that they are getting from their customers. I wish I can be in the sales team. I might be able to create a higher turnover for the company. Then, I will be good in telemarketing! But sadly, I will be stuck to the admin team till my director sees potential in me. My admin includes a little of accounting. Frankly speaking, I'm burning my days away! I have to work every weekdays from 9am to 7pm, 2 Saturdays from 9am to 7pm and 2 Saturdays from 9am to 2pm. I will only be free on Sunday to go to my beloved company ): The thought of it just makes me tear. I only come to realise that the job is quite low paying when Zi Wei broke down the salary (per hour) for me to see. I didn't even realise it when Mr Hong Boon told me at first. But oh well. It's the only job that I can get nearest to home. Salary's $1,300. Am I underpaid? I'll have to spend my remaining time wisely. I'll make sure that I'll still be able to attend my BM's training on every Saturday night.

Spoke to my BM yesterday and I found myself feeling quite disheartened. Reason being, I don't have anyone close enough to talk to about what is on my mind. And things just keep accumulating in me. It was great relief being able to share what I am thinking with someone finally. I guess sharing my problems with my BM afterall isn't as bad as what I thought. But I still can't manage to put what is going through in my mind, into words. He showed me something which really cheered me up. It made me felt that I am not the only one going through that path, and that there is a way out. But I must remain persistant, which I always do. I must overcome everything! I really don't want myself to end up the same way as some people around me do. I want to be stronger in my mindset, and not to let my weakness overcome my mind! I find talking to myself do help alot. Especially when I'm alone, I'm my own's best friend and someone I can confide in. I'll let my mind talk myself out of failure, away from those weaker minds.

Recently, I've come to realise that I haven been thinking of 2 people. One of them has been in my mind for quite sometime now. I'm trying to force them out of my mind but they just keep drifting back soon again. Sarah! What're you thinking? You jolly well know that there is no good ending to this! But whenever I think of the unlikely ending, I will somehow feel floating away from the reality and imagining the impossibles. And it affects my mood. It really does. FOCUS!