Been so hectic recently and going out to many places with Dear. I'm so super happy! (: But guess happiness runs out rather fast. Time wheezed by since 16th May and till now, I still think that there isn't enough time. Even 24 hours isn't sufficient. And what's worse? Having more jobscopes and lesser time spent available! But he has to do his job. Much unhappiness and upset but well, guess it's high time that I should grow up and think maturely. Time spent together is not all in life. Have been going out with him everyday for the past 1 month (except days whereby he had to stay back for meeting). Many of his actions warmed my heart (: Never did anyone make for me honey lemon when I am having a cold, and he made it twice :D I love lying on his shoulder while he is driving till I fall asleep soundly. Spending the whole evening with him just watching the waves makes me feel as though we are all alone in the vicinity. There are endless and indescribable feelings to everything.

My Shi Fu told me this recently that if I hit 200k sales in this coming lunar 7th month, I will get $500 commission. Well, how am I able to hit it? I have never "chiong" sales before. Have always been concentrating in my Tingkat and answering buffet calls occassionally. How am I competent enough to hit 200k? Damn! It's kind of far-fetched to me. But nevertheless, if I am really given that chance to answer buffet calls officially, I will definitely try my very best and not let my Shi Fu or Dear down. Being fully in sales has always been my motivation. But right up till now, I am still unsure as to why my director does not want to transfer me over to the sales department? In what way am I lacking in capabilities that others don't? He once said that I am too young when I first joined this company on 20th October last year. It's already the 7th month, yet I am still not given the chance. But I will still strive towards my goal no matter what. *sighs* I really hate it when those people thinks I am in another part of the building playing or taking a break. Do they even understand how much trouble all those drivers and kitchen people are giving me trouble? It's true that sometimes I do miss things out here and there. But I always receive complaints from customers on late delivery and food quality. Well, I don't understand all these comments on the food. I have even tried having the food at 10pm without reheating and it wasn't even the least bit spoilt. And having the food at 7pm? I'm sure it won't.

Well, enough of work matters. Dear ordered 2 kites on Monday and went to collect it on Tuesday after Driver Meeting. Was pretty excited to fly it on Wednesday after work. But alas! It rained in the late afternoon and of course, the air was still. There wasn't any wind, don't even talk about enough wind to fly a kite. Damn! Was slightly disappointed. But great! I spent the rest of the next 1 hour sitting with Dear watching the waves and chatted (: But I was super tired and almost fell asleep while talking. I guess Dear noticed that my eyes were about to close and he initiated to go back to the car. Chatted awhile more before sending me back home. Up till now, there are so many things in common and our bluetooth is still working. Many times I did the wrong things and he ended up catching me in action. And much worse, we had eye contact. Here are a list of some occasions which left a deep impression.

1) I was at 10E spending my weekend doing logistics stuff secretly.He drove to 10E and caught me folding table skirting, asked me if I want to join him for dinner. As I didn't know him enough then and never spoke to him before, I declined and he drove off.

2) I was skinning and dicing sweet potato in the outside the kitchen when the lift door opened and he walked out of it. And at that moment, I was shocked to see him there and the chopper landed into my little finger. Luckily the chopper was not very sharp. If not I would have to bade my little finger farewell.

3) While I was following a driver for delivery on a Saturday, I alighted at a nearby bus-stop as I didn't want to appear in office grounds. I wasn't suppose to follow company drivers for delivery. In the end, Dear happened to walk towards his car and he spotted me no matter how much I tried to face the other way round in hope that he didn't notice that it was me. Got to know that he realized a few days later in msn when he told me.

4) Again, I was following another part-time driver out for delivery on a Saturday. His van was parked on a slope at the back gate near the rubbish bin. I was trying my very best to hide myself from all other people. And out of nowhere, I had this sudden fear in me and had this urgency to stick myself as close to the seat as possible as I had this feeling that Dear is nearing. And much to my expectation, I was right! But the shocking thing was that Dear happened to walk past the window. There was another van between us. But right at that moment he passed the window, he turned his head to face me and we had direct eye contact. And I will always remember the expression he had on his face. A forewarning.

5) Went for drinking with 2 other friends and we were at ground floor. While they both were deciding on where to head over to, I had nothing to do and listened to their conversation. Tried my very best to hide under the big umbrella. But there was something within me that told me to look up. And guess what? Dear was looking out of his window and at that moment, he saw me downstairs and yet again, we had eye contact. He shook his head and moved away from his window. I swear I never looked up at any of the windows before.

6) Went to work pretty early at 8.40am when my work started at only 10am. As I didn't want to spend time in office yet, I went downstairs to the container office to look for Annie to chat. It happened so that she was on morning half-day leave and I walked around. Mr Curry and a few others were inside another container peeling onions and skinning potatoes, so I went to join them. I hid myself and wasn't in a spot whereby anyone outside can see me even though I was just beside the opened door. But right at that moment. Something within me told me that Dear was nearing. And once again, when I look out slowly out of the door, he was just about to enter the container office and his hand was already on the door knob turning it. Instantaneously, he turned his head and our eyes were in contact. He gestured for me to get away from that place I was in, but I didn't listen to him. 2nd time, he came out of office to wash the coffee pot, I looked out again and he was at the door again. This time he struck a fierce look and immediately, I took off the pair of gloves I was wearing and followed him back to the container office. He lectured me for being there peeling the onions. After apologising, I went back to my sit. But within 5 mins, he sms-ed me to go down again. This time, the lecture was even longer and those China workers who walked past even laughed at me for being caught and lectured by him. The scene was damn embarrassing!

I guess so far, those mentioned above are the most memorable incident. I am not sure why either that we have this special connection. We have alot of interest alike and I feel totally secure in his presence.

Yay! My birthday is coming! Countdown (: And I have a twin in office. Our birthday falls on 2nd August! *wahaha* and we always address each other as twin. I will be turning 20 soon and there goes my teenager life. *sighs!* Going to be 21 years old next year. Will be updating my wishlist soon as there are different set of things that I want to achieve when I reach another stage in life.

Dear's having meeting today at OC and will be ending rather late. Might fall asleep before he ends meeting. Planned to go kite flying tomorrow but again, it might rain. And yippee! Will be out shopping on Saturday evening after his work. But high chance will be watching waves again. *wahaha!* It's getting late. Shall update soon when I have the time again. Goodnights all! (: