Currently having IDEAS now. After reading all those comments that Bala and Melvynn posted, I want to state my point of view. I do not hate anyone. I just probably dislike them. But, although i might dislike them, that does not stop me from talking to them normally. To me, I personally think anything that you feel is wrong with the world is probably something to do with myself. My senior once told me that nothing is wrong with the attitude of another person. It's the way how u accept their attitude. Based on this, Attitude problem lies with only yourself. I once hated almost everyone. But after that talk with my senior, i realised that I learned to be more open to the world around me. Nothing can be perfect. Accept one's character for the best of yourself. But sometimes it's rather difficult. But I am trying. Is everyone trying? Or are they just blaming others for what they have done and accomplished no matter its good or bad. Often, bad points are regarded more than good points. Bad points leave a greater impression. But why can't anyone start afresh of understanding someone even though that someone might have once left you a rather bad impression? Now, is it the fault of the 'hater' or the 'person being hated'? To get along well with another is to accept them for who they are.

Sometimes, the world is full of hypocrites. The world might backstab u anytime, anywhere, moments when you will never expect in your life. Sometimes, I feel I might hate, no, maybe i should use the word dislike. Sometimes, I dislike this world. But what can I do? *sighs*

I want to change myself for the better. My goal? Firstly, I WANT to stop being violent and stop kicking almost everyone. Secondly, change my attitude to be more serious and responsible in matters that i would be handling.

I had TKD training yesterday. As what I have mentioned before, I will join the pattern tournament for the IVP(Inter-Varsity Polytechnic) tournament. But now, I am considering whether to join the Sparring tournament for the IVP. I trained my kicking yesterday instead of sparring as what I had been doing for the past few trainings. My 'papa' Nelson trained me. But he commented my kick as powerful but not fast enough. I kicked more on the powerpac(for power-training) and a little on the handmitt(for acuracy-training). *arrgh* I need to 'turn in' more for my turning kick. Must train more on it. Both MinYi and i came up with a training strategy. On alternate Tuesday, we will train on kicks or sparring. But I guess I will have to train more on my kicks before i start training on sparring. I think my papa did a rather great job guiding me. Thank You Nelson Papa!! :)) I will work really hard and not let you down! But I don't really know what am I targetting for. Whether to target to get a Gold/Silver medal, OR just go for the tournament just for the experience. *sighs*

Now I learned something from IDEAs. The lecturer taught:'Moment of truth'. It's a moment when there is something that will change the whole situation, whether good or bad. *arrgh* Now there is an upcoming project for IDEAs. We must go 'shopping' in a particular place. But we are not obliged to buy anything. Just have to check the price and information etc. This reminds me of the EEEClub's amazing race. Anything with EEEClub is just so memorable to me. Anyway, we have to use the five senses(hear, feel, taste, smell, see) in the process of the project. *woots~* Just realised that i got 70 for IDEAs project. But i feel rather bad. *sighs* I didn't even do anything for the project. And much worst, I didn't even present for the project. And it's like I got the project points free-of-charge. *haiis* There is this tinge of guilt. And right now, we have to get into groups of 4 for the IDEAs project. I hate it!! Oh great. That Yu Xiang told the lecturer that the previous group of group 5 and 9 would be together. *arrgh* How can he make decision for us? IDEAs lesson is over at last:))

I am trying to be a changed girl. I didn't even skip lessons this week. *weeee*. It's a great deal of effort alright? XD First, I will stop skipping lessons, second, I will start doing all those tutorials that the lecturer will give. Having GEMS, com discussion and Banner painting today. What a pack schedule day. And it never ends. When I get home tonight after banner painting, I would have to study for my Maths quiz!! I LOVE MATHS! Such a familiar phrase isn't it? *sobs* Guess I'm stuck with maths for all my life being in the engineering area now, and perhaps infuture? *sighs* Life is getting busier as it comes to MSTs. I just hope I get it over and done with as soon as possible. I want my holidays. Somehow, I am looking forward to next year's School of EEE Freshmen Orientation camp. The thought of it just thrills me :D

haha!! Just saw Raymond at the bench of T12301. The way he walks is so damn slack and shag. *hahas* Principles of Electrical and Electronics Engineering practical is up next on the lesson list. den from 1pm to 3pm having my GEMS(Introduction to Principles of Management), Com discussion at 3.15pm and banner painting after all has ended. Okie, finally, I am going to end here. Last thing to say, What my friend did was the right thing. Fault lies with myself and no one else :)) I am really apologethic for my act on impulse. *sighs*

That's all for today:))